Archive for January, 2010

got “the” news bout you just now. and still . . . can hardly believe it. searched and found your picture and couldn’t help the tear to fall. couldn’t be there on the last moment, but if i could . . . these are things that i want you to know:

– i love the way you smile when you take off your fake teeth

– your tiny poor house (hell hot on summer and leak in many spots during rainfall) yet rich (of laughter) home is badly missed

– i never understand the meaning of the songs you used to sing before i sleep, but it sounds so good

– swimming across the river on a stormy night carrying my mom on 9 months pregnancy = true hero

– to forgive and asking forgiveness are attributes of a real brave heart – will bear ’em in mind

– giving advice without pushing and do the talk – work best on me

– reach high stay modest : roger!

– “better late than never” is mostly true

– you share much though don’t have much: really cool of you 🙂

– you’re pretty good in hiding things called troubles – need to master that

– pray . . . in any language you find it right to express: yes, noted

– i did try to learn boso jowo for you

– you shine when you smile . . . and so i do that too

– everything you cooked is (super damn) tasty

– i start to have a dream to build a school after knowing your lil’ struggle back then: you insisted to have all your 10 children to have a good education though you knew you were waaaaay beyond “enough” even to eat

– actually i don’t wanna be a doctor. i wanna be a teacher coz i wanna be like you

– that one midnight, i heard you were praying for me . . . i cried

– others (that only you and me should know)

things might be a bit different now. lebaran wouldn’t be the same again without you. still got promises that i haven’t fulfill. deeply sorry. will keep trying (hard) though. i know you’re watching me “up” there.

love you to the max, mbah. you stay at heart and always will. put you on my prayer.

till we meet again . . .


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Well, niatnya si pengen rajin ngupdate. Tapi, for “some reasons” baru bisa nerusin lagi sekarang. Saking banyaknya yang pengen di-share, bingung mo mulai dari mana, dengan konsep yang seperti apa. Setelah berpikir dengan sedikit keras, gw memutuskan konsepnya adalah “no concept”. Haha :D Males mikir ;P

Berasa ada pressure gitu pas mo nulis lagi setelah berabad lamanya ga ngupdate ini blog.  Been more than a year here in Shizuoka. Living the life I’ve been dreamed about since my childhood. Main mission: to master Japanese and know more bout “some others”. Progress: *uhuk2* Japanese are getting a tiny lil bit better, but hey, i do know quite much about those “some others”.

To my dearest families and friends, I’m about to continue sharing some pieces of my journey. I dedicate them all for you. You are thought about and so very much missed! So . . .  sit back, relax, grab some snacks and enjoy the story:) Please do remember that i still got dyselexia in expressing things. So don’t be surprised if you find some weird words or lines ahead.

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29 guy

Kenalnya dari salah seorang teman kerja seangkatan. Bidang maen tembak-menembak si dia juaranya. As for me, “ditembak” di stasiun Gambir. Hihihi kocak deh. Ga bisa brenti senyum2 sendiri sepanjang perjalanan ke Bandung.

Ga tau sejak kapan, gara2 ni orang, gw bener2 suka cheesecake sampe sekarang. It’s you who made my life so colorful.

A guy whom I had “gentlemen agreement” with 😛 An honor to have the opportunity to meet you in my life, sir!

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the letter

I got that letter today. Been wating for a week impatiently. It was an official note written in 漢字 (I can only read the “合格” [read: goukaku, means: pass] part) that after I bring it to school and showed it to my teacher, it says that I passed the exam. Can’t stop smiling while i’m riding bycicle on my way back home and think that I need to thank some people. Pardon that I use this media (fb) to share my “tiny-lil” joy today 🙂

As you might already know, it was an important exam I had last week. One of those in my dream lists that I can already put a “checked” mark on it now. Some people say it’s hard and some others say it’s easy to pass the exam. Well, to me, it was not easy (you know why, I’ve told you). However, I made it. Like an artist who won an Oscar, or a singer who had her first debut album, this is a similar thanking note from me to you (in random order), people that had helped me made it ’till this far:

– Juls: Gw inget banget ketemu lo pertama kali di depan ドンキホテー, trus langsung SKSD. Hahaha 😀 Gila, gw ngrasa lo keren banget pas abis ngedenger cerita2 “perjuangan” lo. Inspiring!

– Panji: Meskipun kita cuman ketemu skali dan bentar banget tapi lo memberikan kesan dan petuah mendalam buat gw. Ciailaaah. E-book nya keren ^_^ Mind your mind yah, Ji 🙂

– Indra: Ketemu pertama kali di ガスト, trus ngobrol (apa ngeronda ya itu?) tengah malem (apa dini hari ya itu?), dari masalah lingkungan ampe rencana memajukan bangsa. hahahaha 😀 senpai & my future working partner. Tengkyu yah, udah (dengan semena2) gw repotin ;P
よろしくね、先輩 😀

– Ilman: Kamu adalah bukti nyata yang hidup, nak. I learn a lot from u, lil kiddo!

– Wulan: Hmm, jangan bosen2 dengerin crita2 gue yaaaah ^_^

– Nella: My more than “roommate” mate! You are truly someone! Trusting me on soo many things. My everyday life supporter. Can hardly wait for you to come back, girl ^_^

– Marzie & Anja: Our short meeting is unforgettable. Miss the “shit-conversation” in our lil’ kitchen 🙂

– Mehong, Pietse, Uni, Irvan, and Pablo: Lingkaran setan yang slalu ada buat gw. Thanks for the prayers, terutama buat yang lagi rajin tahajud. Hehehe 🙂

– Ayuta: Trima kasih skali lagi atas bakaran dupa2 nya ;P This chick made it, and so will you!

– Duy, Cika, Nci, Piesca, Wini: meskipun kalian menyebar di berbagai belahan dunia, tapi slalu (dengan cara yang aneh) dapat menginspirasi gw. Anjist, bahasa gw “EYD J.S. Badudu” banget ga, sih? Hehehe 😀 Duy, kartu dari lo ituh, juara. Teteup email2an yah kita 🙂

– Gia Sista: Urang lulus, Gi. Bungah pisan! Maneh oge, sing sukses terus nya’.

– Anggita: elo orang pertama yang bisa baca nama universitas itu di salah satu foto gw. Gw menantikan kedatangan mu. Cepatlah kemari!

– Arya & Indah: 110-Rockin’ Bali gals. You know my story, deh. Arya, I wore your White GAP Shirt under my suit during the exam. I looked totally smashing cool, deh! Tapi teteup, keren2 naek sepedah ajah dong, gw ;P

– ミニュン: 静岡大学院の試験に合格した、よ。だから、ミニュンさん


– Dims: you know your role 🙂 words cannot describe, thanking you much!

You might forgot this note someday, but I still want you not to forget, that you, each of you, had somehow gave a contribution to a girl in making (one of) her dreams come true. She definitely couldn’t make it without you. It’s always glad to know that you don’t fight this battle of life alone (especially in this far, far away country). It’s also nice to know that there (still) are people who trust you more than yourself that you can really do great things. It might be just another small step, yet i believe every small step leads to big leap.

Well, that girl still got another dreams to catch \^o^/

Hatur Nuhun – Matur Kesuwun – Trima kasih – Thanks – ありがとう – Danke schon !

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(Taken from one of the note i wrote before )

So then I suddenly wanna write somthin’ today. So yes, today is my birthday, one of the day that I someway consider special each year. Yup, turning 27 today (some unimportant additional info for some friends who really wanna know how old I really am).  Scared of not growing up, but not scared of growing old. I’d like to say that it’s a special birthday I have this year. Doesn’t mean that the previous ones I had before were not special, but this year’s just “different” (in a good way, couldn’t find the rite word). It’s just that I feel, during the past one year a I had, I really could find myself more if I might say.

This is some “short” note I especially dedicate for the people who help me to find “me”. Glad to meet people (family, friends, love of my life,  and enemies) who:

–          Remember my birthday.

–          Made me the best birthday cake ever today (it’s honestly a pretty and super tasty one) and gave me a lovely gift (you know who you are).

–          Take me as I am.

–          Teach me how to do things rite.

–          Are are always there (as I grow old and grow up) even when I could’t see you. You are amy stars!

–          Are patient to listen to the same old “shits” during my low moments.

–          Share their passion in life (it’s the best “contagious virus” that I’ll always love). As you share your passion, you shine, and unconciously help me to shine too ^_^

–          Share stories, songs, tears and laughters.

–          Always give neverending love and support.

–          Give me the courage to do more and more.

–          Never get tired to remind me to do good things and not to do bad things (with many kinds of logical reasons)

–          Believe that I could really make my dreams come true. I’ll do whatever it takes! \^o^/

–          Have faith in me (more than myself) that I can really do great things.

–          Say they’re not good in words to express things on some certain conditions. FYI: your willingness to listen, smile, pat on a shoulder, and even only your existence are more than enough.

–          Help me to learn how to love and how to live life.

–          Help me go through my searching soul process until now. I still need you all to help me become th very best version of me.

–          Touch my heart ; )

–          Especially, to my enemies, I’m also glad to meet you. You make me believe that: “Bad things do exist for us to learn”

It’s true that people come and go. And for those of you who know how much I hate farewell (in any kind of form, it just hurts), I used to be scared (and still a bit I guess) that I will lose the friends I have now. But I found the best way how not to get hurt is to cherish and treasure every moment you have with them. You just don’t know how much time you have left in life, and things do happen for reasons.

So my dearest family, friends, love of my  life, and enemies, I really do appreciate and treasure that. Thanks a bunch for the love, wishes and prayers. Words are just not enough to express how I really gratefull to meet you all : ) You are remembered . . . always. You’re all my best GIFT form above !

Lotsa love, hugs, and kisses ^_^

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yang gak bisa jelek

Many thanks ya, jeng. Buat pijetan dan kerokan yang maut dan menyembuhkan di kala gw tepar.

Hope you find what you’re looking for real soon, deh. Amien.

Positivity that you can’t bear.

Yup, it’s soo you!

Keep it up, sis J

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Inget nggak waktu lo minta gw nginep di tempat lo, waktu Mas lo itu lagi dines ke Filipina? Waktu itu pas bulan puasa. Trus, gw nyetel alarm handphone tiap tengah malem, critanya mo baca2. Lo ngamuk berat karna meskipucn kita udah beda kamar, tapi cumin elo yang denger alarm itu. Elo kebangun, ngomel2 sama gw, dan ga bisa tidur lagi ampe sahur, sedangkan gw dengan bolot & kebonya malah teteup molor. Huahahahaha 😀

Ato juga masa2 dimana kita saingan nyetel dorama ”Attack No 1”. Gw nyetel episode 2 pake PC, dan lo nyetel episode 1 pake laptop, tepat di belakang gw. Trus kita kenceng2an pula nyetelnya. Bodoh banget . . .

Duh, pa kabar lo sekarang, kecebong?

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